Is the trapped feeling a power reversal? Bullying myself because I feel powerless to change my own situation? Or, rather, to live with my current situation? Stay in it until the next thing. Why am I so concerned with waiting out uncomfortable states? That’s all I ever do is wait them out. Let the storm subside. Bleh.

WHY IS MY MAGIC NOT STRONG ENOUGH YET? I THOUGHT I WOULD BE ABLE TO HANDLE THESE THINGS BY NOW!!